Dream rather nightmares

Detail from Dante's Inferno by Rodin, Rodin Muesum, Paris

I am not sure what my nightmares/dreams over the past week are bringing up but I feel that they must be important otherwise they would not be so vivid and thought provoking. I have had every night a series of nightmares that really shake me. I suppose I am having separation fears and abandonment fears as well. People I have not thought about and people I hold dear have been plaguing these nightmares. my kittens, my family members, friends are being taken from me or hurt in these dreams. I think maybe it is the hurt, pain and disappointment that I feel I have caused them that may be bringing all this on. I have not slept well, my mind has been to active and I am trying to process what bits I can remember. Hence, I find myself off and trying to figure out ways to resolve these things so that I can sleep well. I feel sick and tired and am finding solace in nothing. I intend to write some letters today and send them off to some folks letting them know that I hold them dear and what they have brought to my life. I feel if I acknowledge the things they have brought to me maybe they will realize that they are important to me and some healing can begin.

On a happier note I received a lovely card from a co-worker that I helped, some flowers from a wonderful patient and a nomination onto the social committee. Yay!! I have a lunch this week with some co-workers, a social committee meeting, and I signed up for a birthday party food contribution. Ohhh, and I received another raise!!

The end of the school year for the bean is quickly approaching and we are planning a trip to Colorado. The year is passing so quickly, I can hardly believe that 6th grade is almost over for her and she will be in 7th grade, kindergarten seems like yesterday.

Well off to write some letters, not emails, actual letters that require postage and such.

In the morning when I wake up and listen to the sound
Of the birds outside on the roof
I try to ignore what the paper says
And I try not to read all the news
And I'll hold you if you had a bad dream
And I hope it never comes true
'Cause you and I been through so many things together
And the sun starts climbing the roof

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
It's only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

The Red River stills flows through my home town
Rollin' and tumblin' on its way
Swirling around the old bridge pylons
Where a boy fishes the morning away
His bicycle leans on an oak tree
While the cars rumble over his head
An aeroplane leaves a trail in an empty blue sky
And the young birds call out to be fed

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
It's only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

An old man walks along on the sidewalk
Sunglasses and an old Stetson hat
The four winds blow the back of his overcoat away
As he stops with the policeman to chat
And a train rolls out of the station
That was really somethin' in its day
Picking up speed on the straight prairie rails
As it carries the passengers away

It's gone
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
Only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
It's only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away

-Neil Young
-Its a Dream