Ouch

Went to boot camp class tonight at the gym, it was fun!! Hard, I am going to be so sore tomorrow morning, actually I am already sore. Ouch!!! I am so excited to get in better shape and work some muscles that need extra work. I hope it gets easier. I start boxing classes on Sat. morning, I am so very excited!! Yay!!! I am trying to get better at derby, I feel that some old fashioned hard work will make me stronger and better. Yay!!!

Jeez

I stongly dislike people that are ignorant and do not care, life is not a popularity contest. I am disappointed that I see this ugly cycle in my life, my whole young adult life was spent thinking I was not good enough with petty attitudes to deal with, I chose to not have it in my life at this moment, so I will move on to work with people that care about my feelings, want to be around me and understand what friendship is without exclusion and elitism.

Somebody's screaming
looking at the ceilling
everything's so funny
I don't have the money
people don't even know me
but they know how to show me

Why can't you be nicer to me?

My pride is dying
I think I'm all done lying
nobody's sharing
so I stop caring
all alone and walking
nobody's talking

Why can't you be nicer to me?

Well the wind is blowing
where am I going
off a bridge and falling
nobody's calling
on the ground and laying
nobody's praying

Why can't you be nicer to me?

The White Stripes
Why Can't You Be Nicer

GrrrrRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRR...

Could not say it better

I love
Jacques-Bernard Brunius (1944)

I love sliding I love upsetting everything
I love coming in I love sighing
I love taming the furtive manes of hair
I love hot I love tenuous
I love supple I love infernal
I love sugared but elastic the curtain of springs turning to glass
I love pearl I love skin
I love tempest I love pupil
I love benevolent seal long-distance swimmer
I love oval I love struggling
I love shining I love breaking
I love the smoking spark silk vanilla mouth to mouth
I love blue I love known—knowing
I love lazy I love spherical
I love liquid beating drum sun if it wavers
I love to the left I love in the fire
I love because I love at the edges
I love forever many times Just one
I love freely I love especially
I love separately I love scandalously
I love similarly obscurely uniquely
HOPINGLY
I love I shall love

mmmmmmmm.......

Ewwwwwwww

I have been sick, I mean really sick, sick like I have never been before, it is horrible. Every time I think I am getting well, I end up feeling cruddy. Since I have been ill, I have done nothing but sleep, work and sleep some more. I can not wait until I feel almost human again. It is all because of these little suckers:
That's right EBV, one of the causes of mono, here is what the CDC has to say about it:
Epstein-Barr virus, frequently referred to as EBV, is a member of the herpesvirus family and one of the most common human viruses. The virus occurs worldwide, and most people become infected with EBV sometime during their lives. In the United States, as many as 95% of adults between 35 and 40 years of age have been infected. Infants become susceptible to EBV as soon as maternal antibody protection (present at birth) disappears. Many children become infected with EBV, and these infections usually cause no symptoms or are indistinguishable from the other mild, brief illnesses of childhood. In the United States and in other developed countries, many persons are not infected with EBV in their childhood years. When infection with EBV occurs during adolescence or young adulthood, it causes infectious mononucleosis 35% to 50% of the time.

Let me tell you mono sucks, grrrrrrrr

I want to not feel sick and start to feel better so that I can skate and do some fun things.....

Wonder....

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed. "
Albert Einstein

I often wonder why...
It sometimes drags out over a few days
sometimes a few hours
I can get lost
wondering...